Email Loser, Idol Winner

I had a really cool epiphany today, and I plan to write about it soon. However, tonight my heart is overflowing with gratitude. Therefore, my epiphany will have to wait for a day or two because I want to publicly say thank you to a whole lot of people.

I've been rather cranky lately. I hate it when I am cranky. Usually, I go into creative overdrive when I am in a bad mood because, for me, that is the best way to shake the funk. Unfortunately, my mojo has left the building and creativity is just not happening. I tried. I really did. In fact, yesterday I actually designed some pages for a circle journal. They were crash and burns. Into the trash they went. And that meant that I missed a mailing deadline. I feel like such a slacker. I take these circle journals very seriously, and I would never contribute anything but my best effort to someone else's journal. Therefore, I felt as though I had no choice but to throw that pathetic piece of work away. Back to the drawing board I must go.

I tried to design again today. No luck. Seriously, my mojo is gone. I have got to get rid of this foul mood I'm in. Thankfully, I have friends who sense my moods, and today, some of those wonderful women reached out to me. I ended up spending the entire afternoon with my gal-pals - online, via email. For me, this is a big deal, because, I confess: I am horrible when it comes to responding to emails. (at this moment, I can actually see people who are reading this shake their heads in agreement, because I'm that bad.) I am always at least 100 replies behind. And that includes corresponding with my family. I am the epitome of an email LOSER. This is one thing that I have really struggled with over the years, because I LOVE getting email, and I feel very guilty that I pretty much suck at sending it. When my in box is full, I am a happy girl. Email excites me. The whole concept of sending and receiving mail in real time has opened a whole new world to me - a world that has allowed me meet new people and to keep in touch with family and friends from all over the country. Or, I should say has allowed people to attempt to keep in touch with me. I do not exaggerate when I say I am a bad responder. But in my mind, I respond to each and every message I receive. I mentally respond when I am washing dishes or working on my pages. I even compose responses in the shower and while I'm driving the car. But when it comes to actually sitting down and tapping on the keys to type out my thoughts, I fail miserably. So for me to spend an entire afternoon playing catch up... well, that was a major accomplishment.

But my success at hitting Send today was not due to any effort on my part. No. It was due to those friends who reached out to me, sensing that I was in need of moral support. I am blessed to have such wonderful friends - women who accept me as I am and don't judge or jump to conclusions when I disappear for weeks and months at a time. And I include many of my blog readers in that group. You people also reach out. I feel it. I sense it. And I read it when you comment. From the bottom of my heart, I sincerely thank you. Because without the support and love from my friends, I fear that I would sink into a very dark place. I have been blessed with friendships that are powerful and strong; friendship that truly do stand the test of time. These friends understand when I am sinking, and they don't allow me to drown; they see it coming and they literally rush to my aid. I don't know what I've done to deserve such support, but I am truly grateful for it. (Of course, now that I have publicly admitted that I am an email LOSER, more than likely, no one will ever email me again!).

And so tonight, I thank my friends. And I also thank those who take the time to read this blog, for it is here that I share my heart, and anyone who spends time reading what I share has to know me to some degree. To the people who return time and time again to read my words, I greatly appreciate your thoughts and prayers. And this includes the shy ones who do not comment or email me, because in spite of the lack of contact, I still feel your kindness and your support.

On a less sappy note: not only did I spend the afternoon typing my fingers to the bone, I spent the evening dialing my fingers to the bone. I honestly think I dialed 866-436-5702 (04) (06) at least 500 times Tuesday night. And with all those tries, spanning a four hour period, I was only able to cast five votes for Taylor Hicks. I really want this guy to win American Idol. I love cheering for the underdog, and Taylor seemed to have no chance at the beginning of the season. Simon Cowell didn't even want to send Hicks to Hollywood. I can't imagine what this season of A.I. would have been like without Taylor's soulful voice and quirky dancing. This guy has a passion for music unlike anything I've seen in a long time. Passion and soul ooze from his heart when he sings. Which is exactly why I hope he wins. He may not be stereotypical "idol" material, but in my opinion, he has earned the right to be named an American Idol.

Comments

[Sofia]

I know how frustrating it can be when your mojo goes MIA. I hoope that it will return soon.

I was really rooting for Chris on AI this season, but now that he isn't there, I'm hoping that Taylor wins. Go Taylor!

[Donna M.]

I rarely vote, but Ispent over an hour and half with speed dial calling from the east coast and could get through only once! Go Taylor!

[Cathy]

GO TAYLOR!!! I too dialed and dialed and dialed. Only got through 2 times. Crazy. Seriously hope he wins. SERIOUSLY.

Glad you had such a great day. Makes me sad I couldn't be here emailing with you... I was at the eye doctor this morning and my eyes are still so dilated I can hardly see to type. But I'm here reading your blog. See how my priorities are? LOL!

Love you, friend.

[Lucinda]

After your last email I was a little worried! It's a crazy time of year.
I predict your mojo will return soon!

[cheryl mezzetti]

Hugs to you. I have truly enjoyed your emails so much. I dilike it when my mojo takes a vacation...but it will pass and I will pray it is soon.
Go Taylor!

[Barbie]

Be patient with your mojo - or try another craft. That's what I do. if I don't want to SB, I sew or paint. Or do nothing. It does eventually return. I did my first layout in two months the other day. So glad! Keep your chin up my dear. We're all here for you. XXOO

[Adrienne]

I so enjoy our friendship, even if you don't hit "send" LOL..take care! Know that I am thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers.

[sonia]

Omg, you're in the soul patrol aren't ya?

[Barb Hogan]

Love ya Kel! This too shall pass. Come on over and we'll do lunch :-)
Big hugs to you!